Please God!!!

Please God, may I be back to normal? May I please be healthier than I have ever been? I have been chronically ill since I was 17. Please give me the motivation to push myself through this. I have to do this for me, my children, my husband, and the rest of my family. I take things for granted so much and just do what I want, as far as taking care of myself.  I need the motivation to exercise and eat healthier. Well, I must say, I have the reason to do it, I just can't seem to get going yet. I can't deny it, this has been depressing. I have to make myself get outside and just sit in the sunshine. Just 10 minutes makes a difference. The house we are living in now doesn't bring in much sunshine and I am missing my house. I closed on my house April 28. I am glad it sold, but I will be so glad to get in our new house. Lots of windows, shade, and happiness will be in this house. Thanks to my husband, he hasn't let me back down on what we have wanted in this house! The most important thing I need for this house though is a blessing on it!!! Please pray our house is full of love and happiness and most importantly, God!!

Today is father's day!! I have the most amazing dad!! He has been by my side through everything!! I don't think I could have made it through without my dad. When I had my bowel obstructions 5 years ago, it was like my dad got 20 years younger. He took care of me in every way! My mom, bless her heart, helped me take care of Riley, which is a job in itself! My dad cleaned my incision (which had to heal from the inside out one time), gave me my TPN every night through my IV while I was at home, gave me shots in my leg (yuck) made sure I stayed as happy as possible, and must motivated me every day!! Thank you God, for such a loving, caring dad!!

My sister just sent me some bible verses because I'm being a whiny butt!! I'm begging for prayers to get me through. Not too scared to ask!!!

Isaiah 40:27-31
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27 Why do you say, O Jacob,
and speak, O Israel,
“My way is hidden from the Lord,
and my right is disregarded by my God”?
28 Have you not known? Have you not heard?
The Lord is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He does not faint or grow weary;
his understanding is unsearchable.
29 He gives power to the faint,
and to him who has no might he increases strength.
30 Even youths shall faint and be weary,
and young men shall fall exhausted;
31 but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength;
they shall mount up with wings like eagles;
they shall run and not be weary;
they shall walk and not faint.

ok, I'm waiting on you, Lord!! I will have renewed strength. Yes, I feel depleted. I pray the holy spirit lifts me up because I AM WEARY!! Dang, I don't mean to make this so depressing. Just being honest! I know I will get beyond this and I will mount up with wings like eagles!!!

I pray for you, I pray for me, and I pray we all see our blessings through our battles.

May the peace of Christ be with you!!